Still Becoming

There’s something strange about the in-between—when you’re no longer who you were, but not quite sure who you’re becoming.

It doesn’t always take a big life event to bring on that feeling. Sometimes, it’s a quiet morning that feels different for no clear reason. A familiar road that doesn’t quite hit the same.

Lately, that’s where I’ve found myself.

A quiet morning that feels different for no clear reason. A familiar road that doesn’t quite hit the same. A shift in rhythm you didn’t ask for—but suddenly have to dance with anyway.

Lately, that’s where I’ve found myself.

Not completely lost…but definitely not “figured out.”

In moments like this, I want clarity. An answer, a sign—something to help me understand what’s happening and what to do next. It’s frustrating to notice a change in yourself before you know how to explain it.

When I can’t point to where I’m headed, it’s easy to wonder whether I’m getting anywhere.

As Mr. Rogers once said,

“Transitions are almost always signs of growth, but they can bring feelings of loss. To get somewhere new, we may have to leave somewhere else behind.”

That’s the part I keep coming back to: a change can be good for you and still involve losing something you’ll miss.

These in-between stretches can feel like “nowhere.” You’re no longer where you started, but you can’t quite describe where you are now.

Meanwhile, there’s work to do, people to get back to, and decisions that won’t wait until you feel ready. You’re trying to keep up with your present and plan your future, with no guarantee that either will go the way you hoped.

But you keep going.

You keep showing up for the parts of your life that still feel like you.

For the playlists that still hit.

For the people who remind you who you are, even when you forget.

I can get so caught up in wondering what comes next that I forget to make time for those things. And I don’t want to look back on this stretch and realize I spent most of it wishing it were over.

The in-between is part of my life, too. There are things I enjoy about it, even if I’d have trouble giving you a clear answer about how everything else is going.

If you’re in a similar place, I hope you’ll give yourself some room to figure things out. Not knowing what comes next doesn’t mean you’ve failed.

And if someone in your orbit has a problem with that, they’ve got something to figure out, too. 😌

You don’t have to sprint just to have an answer ready for someone else.

I’m reminding myself of that as much as I’m reminding you.

More to come soon.

And if this one hit home, I’d love to hear how you’ve been. 🤍